SG Fairy

work has been soooo busy... we got a new project so we're getting started with it.

but it's a bit hard when i'm losing my optimism over things... i guess it's just too much piling up, so the mood really gets affected.

i wonder how i'm going to pull things off... somehow i know i'll do a great job, but still at the same time, i'm like *pulls sad face*

and then there's the reunion gathering coming up... ahh, sometimes i think, let's just scrap that! but i can't do that now, can i? we've got to give it a shot at least... and if it really doesn't work out... then i'll just never do a reunion again.

i want a holiday!

:) He's promised one after our project... tt's something to look forward to...

i do need a break.... and lots of sleep... u know.. the sleep, then wake up to eat and bathe, then sleep again, and so on... ya... slep sounds very very good. :)

ok... so i started reading harry potter at about 11am, and by the time i finished, it was 4am sunday morning.

of course there were the breaks in between, the meals, showers etc.... but all in all, about 14 hours were all i needed to complete the final book in the harry potter series.

and i feel kinda empty now coz well.. the series has ended for me... no more books to look forward to.

the book was shockingly violent... it wasn't just 2 people getting killed off in the book, but a whole range of characters. i was totally thrown off when at page 70-something, Moody was killed. i was like "WTF?!?!?!?!?!"

my little scream caused heads to turn in my direction when i read that.

but all in all, good book. some might say, the ending was too 'happily ever after' and i admit i found it a little too bubble-gum sweet when i read how things had progressed nineteen years later... but hey, it IS a children's book after all. and rowling balanced off the miserable bits quite well with the cheery ones.

i'm gonna give it a month, then i'll read it again :D

meanwhile... bye harry!

I never knew I could be so 'into' Harry Potter.

Stop laughing, Nis... yes, I said stop!

Only a few more hours to go... then my nose'll be buried in the Deathly Hallows, and I will not stop til I reach the last page!

Then someday, when I'm free (which'll be like, never), perhaps I'll do a study of Harry Potter... literature, you know... I think it'll be very interesting to explore all the different themes raised in the series, as well as study what made the series such a global success.

You do know the operative word in the above paragraph was 'perhaps', right?

been so busy lately... so stressed, and xin also very the fan. It's like, if I might use Harry Potter as an example, lol, running through the maze in the final stage of the Triwizard - being in the dark, feeling lost, bumping into challenges here and there.

And today... i got into a little something with Him and i was sooo upset about it. He wanted me to do something, i did a 'sample', asked Him to look at it (to cover ass mah) and He approved it. He even asked me to change some of the wordings after i did a couple of print drafts. Then suddenly, He decided it wasn't what He had wanted, and blew His top at me. And deep inside, i was sooo upset.

Maybe we both misunderstood each other. maybe when He saw my drafts, He thought it was for something totally different, and it was only much later than He realised what He wanted was not on paper. And I had somehow thought He understood my explanations etc... and anyway...

It was just all one big mess lah! We were so tired, snap snap snap away.

So harry potter will be good fun... an escape... almost like a holiday into another world...

And hopefully... next week... sun'll shine, everything will be just perfect!

Or else, I'll just cry.

i'm tired of being my parents' punching bag... of them pouring all their worries out to me. i mean, i guess it's like, they do need to talk to someone to share problems like friends do... but sometimes, the things they talk abt... just seems too private a thing for a daughter's ears.

esp when it's complaints abt each other.

i'm just tired you know... it's draining me.. mentally, emotionally... i just dun know how to deal with things anymore... with so much going on... i feel so weighted down i'm suffocating.

so many things to worry about... so many things to do... i dun have the strength and energy for it all.

and i just wanna crawl into bed, hide under the covers and cry.

This is why SG's status as a fucking... opps, i meant, funky town, is not gonna come (in more ways than one) anytime soon:

http://littlemissdrinkalot.blogspot.com/2007/07/post-birthday-shag-that-was-not-to-be.html


My heart goes out with you, girl.

And so this was what the doc said when i finally went to visit him today.

I had thought that was it was just a lack of sleep you know...

But apparrently, things like, stress, improper diet etc can cause it too.... kinda like high blood pressure, only it happens to drive everything 'down under'.

explains the dizzy spells i get when i suddenly stand up.

So, i resolve to eat better, and eat more... doc said it's not serious enough... just that, well, BP is low... just not, dangerously low. so no need pills, just a change in habits.

Oh and i'm supposed to cut the smoking too :P

screw the smoking bit... Nis, wanna go CHIJMES for meat feast?

We gotta heal the world... make it a better place.. for you and for me and the entire human race! *sings*

It's like the ads on tv these past days... Global Warming is for Real!

It's something we've got to start seriously thinking about... this ain't politics and stuff... it's a very important issue that can and will affect our lives in the very near future if we do not do something about it.

Some people say Live Earth is a load of crap... just some PR stunt... but as long as people are talking about it, they'll be talking about global warming... and that's what we need, for people to realise that yes, GLOBAL WARMING IS FOR REAL.

i hope the people who read my blog are the intelligent beings i'll like to think they are... lol.

Go visit the Live Earth website... and i hope you'll join the many others, in making a commitment to combat global warming here:

http://liveearthpledge.org/answer_the_call.php