Tuesday, December 23, 2008
All I really want for Christmas is for Him to be back...
Ya, I'm in that kind of mood.
I think it might have been a mistake to go for a short holiday just before Christmas... because now, I'm not liking being home, lol. I wanna go away for Christmas, somewhere nice and quiet, preferably with snow, a real fireplace, chestnuts roasting in it, a couple of bottles of really good wine by the side.
But of course even if I had the opportunity, I'll pass on it. Why? Because there's a family gathering and home could do with the extra pair of hands. There's no real good way of saying it without making myself sound like shit, but I'll do it coz it's my obligation - and we all know that Chinese kids are big on family obligations - well, at least my generation and those before; kids today are all CRAP.
It's not so much that I don't love/enjoy helping the family, I do. But, it's not like a, 'jump for joy' sort of thing.. do you understand what I'm saying?
Sigh.. I don't feel like working today... but that's too much to do; I was working at too leisurely a pace throughout the month coz at the back of my mind I kept thinking, "oh, there's time." I didn't get the memo informing me that this December would fly by in a flash.
It's crappy that we've crashed out and don't have a shot at the Finals. But my dear Lions, I'm not like other SG fans... you still have my love.
Genting was ok... the theme park was loads of fun and I'm glad we went to it coz I'm not getting any younger; only have this many years left to take thrilling rides without getting a heart attack. I even found guts I never knew I had to take a ride that was just, woah! In the past, when I saw similar rides, I'll be like, "never will I try it! not a chance!" But last Friday, I did *big grin*
I do suspect that my sis spiked something I consumed though... because, to tell the truth, it hadn't been a case of me finding the guts to do it. We had been out all day, and it was late afternoon, and I was tired and stoned out... you know, like really blur. And coz I was so stoned, I basically let myself get dragged along for that ride. When I finally realized what I was in for, it was too late: I was already like, 15 floors above ground. I can still remember the fear.
It was also enjoyable, hanging out with the guys when they joined us the next day. It was like, and excuse me for sounding so old, the old days, when you actually had time to hang out. We also visited a R&B club at Genting both nights we were there; it's good to know I can still dance - it's been ages since I last stepped into a club coz let's face it, SG clubs are shit. My sis and I agreed that people in SG go to clubs to look good, and not to just simply have fun. The entire concept of 'fun' does not exist in Singaporeans' clubbing guide; they only know how to show off. But in Malaysia, it was all about chilling out, just enjoying yourself. And that made a great difference to the atmosphere and my experience.
And it's also good to know I can still catch the eye of the opposite sex, lol, even in just normal boring tee and jeans; we hadn't planned on clubbing in Genting. It's the whole game, you know, that's so much fun... when girls club, they can enjoy themselves as much as they want, but they also have to be alert, on the look-out of guys who seem interested in them. Then you do an assessment, ask yourself if you wanna play along or you don't like them at all. If it's a green light, you flirt back from across the dance floor with your body movements, the looks etc. If not, you avoid their eye as much as possible. Then of course, you have to keep a constant eye on your drinks and your friends to make sure they're not getting taken advantage of. Bet you guys never knew how much stuff girls have to do while clubbing.
Now that I think of it, even if some guy had asked me to spend the night with him, I probably wouldn't have agreed - unless he's Mr. James Bond, coz well, who wouldn't wanna help him shake his martini? It wasn't so much coz I was having my period (what a way to start a holiday!) but coz I was only interested in the game... the flirting is the exciting bit, trying to see how much you can entice someone. But once you've hooked him, the fun ends, game over - you know you've won and that's that.
Don't look at me in disgust... you know you guys are exactly the same. Well ok, maybe a little different - you guys view the prize as being the sex, and so of course, you'll have the fuck if you can get it. I can't speak for every female, but for me, the prize is getting the "I find you so sexy I wanna fuck you" pick-up line. Once I get it, that's my prize, so thank you very much, you can go away now. Oh I'm sorry if you thought I wanted to screw you... no, I just wanted to know if I could get you to want to fuck me. The "huh? I though she wanted me?!?!" look is a bonus.
I'm an evil woman, hear me roar.
It's the game, baby.
Sigh... one more week til He returns... my Christmas's been delayed by a week.
I think I'll go find myself a drink this evening, after all the last-minute Christmas shopping (wrapping paper!) and grocery shopping... anybody wanna join me?
Ya, I'm in that kind of mood.
I think it might have been a mistake to go for a short holiday just before Christmas... because now, I'm not liking being home, lol. I wanna go away for Christmas, somewhere nice and quiet, preferably with snow, a real fireplace, chestnuts roasting in it, a couple of bottles of really good wine by the side.
But of course even if I had the opportunity, I'll pass on it. Why? Because there's a family gathering and home could do with the extra pair of hands. There's no real good way of saying it without making myself sound like shit, but I'll do it coz it's my obligation - and we all know that Chinese kids are big on family obligations - well, at least my generation and those before; kids today are all CRAP.
It's not so much that I don't love/enjoy helping the family, I do. But, it's not like a, 'jump for joy' sort of thing.. do you understand what I'm saying?
Sigh.. I don't feel like working today... but that's too much to do; I was working at too leisurely a pace throughout the month coz at the back of my mind I kept thinking, "oh, there's time." I didn't get the memo informing me that this December would fly by in a flash.
It's crappy that we've crashed out and don't have a shot at the Finals. But my dear Lions, I'm not like other SG fans... you still have my love.
Genting was ok... the theme park was loads of fun and I'm glad we went to it coz I'm not getting any younger; only have this many years left to take thrilling rides without getting a heart attack. I even found guts I never knew I had to take a ride that was just, woah! In the past, when I saw similar rides, I'll be like, "never will I try it! not a chance!" But last Friday, I did *big grin*
I do suspect that my sis spiked something I consumed though... because, to tell the truth, it hadn't been a case of me finding the guts to do it. We had been out all day, and it was late afternoon, and I was tired and stoned out... you know, like really blur. And coz I was so stoned, I basically let myself get dragged along for that ride. When I finally realized what I was in for, it was too late: I was already like, 15 floors above ground. I can still remember the fear.
It was also enjoyable, hanging out with the guys when they joined us the next day. It was like, and excuse me for sounding so old, the old days, when you actually had time to hang out. We also visited a R&B club at Genting both nights we were there; it's good to know I can still dance - it's been ages since I last stepped into a club coz let's face it, SG clubs are shit. My sis and I agreed that people in SG go to clubs to look good, and not to just simply have fun. The entire concept of 'fun' does not exist in Singaporeans' clubbing guide; they only know how to show off. But in Malaysia, it was all about chilling out, just enjoying yourself. And that made a great difference to the atmosphere and my experience.
And it's also good to know I can still catch the eye of the opposite sex, lol, even in just normal boring tee and jeans; we hadn't planned on clubbing in Genting. It's the whole game, you know, that's so much fun... when girls club, they can enjoy themselves as much as they want, but they also have to be alert, on the look-out of guys who seem interested in them. Then you do an assessment, ask yourself if you wanna play along or you don't like them at all. If it's a green light, you flirt back from across the dance floor with your body movements, the looks etc. If not, you avoid their eye as much as possible. Then of course, you have to keep a constant eye on your drinks and your friends to make sure they're not getting taken advantage of. Bet you guys never knew how much stuff girls have to do while clubbing.
Now that I think of it, even if some guy had asked me to spend the night with him, I probably wouldn't have agreed - unless he's Mr. James Bond, coz well, who wouldn't wanna help him shake his martini? It wasn't so much coz I was having my period (what a way to start a holiday!) but coz I was only interested in the game... the flirting is the exciting bit, trying to see how much you can entice someone. But once you've hooked him, the fun ends, game over - you know you've won and that's that.
Don't look at me in disgust... you know you guys are exactly the same. Well ok, maybe a little different - you guys view the prize as being the sex, and so of course, you'll have the fuck if you can get it. I can't speak for every female, but for me, the prize is getting the "I find you so sexy I wanna fuck you" pick-up line. Once I get it, that's my prize, so thank you very much, you can go away now. Oh I'm sorry if you thought I wanted to screw you... no, I just wanted to know if I could get you to want to fuck me. The "huh? I though she wanted me?!?!" look is a bonus.
I'm an evil woman, hear me roar.
It's the game, baby.
Sigh... one more week til He returns... my Christmas's been delayed by a week.
I think I'll go find myself a drink this evening, after all the last-minute Christmas shopping (wrapping paper!) and grocery shopping... anybody wanna join me?
